breakdown.

Im not totally sure where things went wrong, but i know at some point they did. nothing is okay. nothing feels right. everyone only says they care because if they dont, someone might get hurt. im not sure of anything anymore. who i am or where i stand. all i know is i want you to be here and you never will. im tired of caring when no one cares back. the li/oving only makes me sick. dont count on me to get tnrough this. the yelling and the suicide attempts and pills and cigarettes are all ill ever know. dont blame it on bad luck if thats all weve got. in sorry for everything. lies and laughs i didnt mean. i cant undo a thing. please help me. i cant remember the words or i could really make this hurt. for a second i imagined someone else was there. it wasnt you. she was a christian and she didnt care. i never want to exist without you by me. this just doesnt feel like home anymore. tell me im not crazy anymore.