im other side of the pillow cold (hearted)

you make me want to lay still. cant tell which way is up and which is down when im under water standing on my head. please tell me where to go because ive lost control. point me in the direction of affection; i have none. let me see you undress your mind. let me in. hold me tight. if only you could see me on the most lonely nights. in the bathroom floor with my face in the porcelain. pills only work if theyre in yr stomach. i lost my way at such a young age. no one ever put me back on the street, but i was up all night watching the cars speed away.