Honestly, I don't want to grow up.
I want to sleep on my sister's couch and sneak out at night.
I want to bum money from my parents and never do homework.
I'm scared of leaving you behind.
I'm scared of being left behind.
I'm in love with everything and everyone at this very moment.
And I wouldn't change a thing.
And yes, I know I've changed.
Who I am is now a twisted, medicated version of who I was.
Disproportionate to the size of the problems.
I don't want to promise you that I won't ever make regrettable mistakes, because I don't like to lie to you.
And I can't tell you I'll get better eventually, because I'm pretty sure I'll only get worse.
But I promise I won't disappear or fall out of your life.
Willingly.
Because when I say I love you, I mean it.
and this is more than just needing a friend.
This is not being able to live without you.
<3
P.s. I'm sorry if I ever disappoint, worry, or stress you out.
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I love you so fucking much bestfriend.
I know I honestly could never lose you, or I'd go completely insane, which is why I worry so much. I seriously trust you more than pretty much anything in this world. Even my insane friggin paranoia doesn't reach far enough to make me not trust you. You're the only one that has ever understood. I'm so lucky to have you, bestfriend.
LOL I really hope this at least a little directed toward me or ima feel like a tard.
It was entirely directed towards you. :)
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