Someone somewhere said some things.

"I then decided that if I couldn't even keep the interest of an insignificant, pestilent little...beast boy, then there was absolutely no HOPE for me. I was losing...I felt so alone. Always alone....the cycle had spun on the blackest pits of hell...I decided to stop it where it was. So it wouldn't have another chance to turn.
I thought there was nothing in life that I valued, and I didn't want to feel this BIZARRE pain I'd been experiencing, I mean it was PHYSICAL.
Like something stabbing my heart over and over and over and over and over and over, digging deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper, turning and twisting inside. I just wanted it to stop....I was on my way. I could have done it. I told my mom I was staying with a friend....I was headed to the cemetery to do the deed- it's dark there, quiet, no one would come around for hours at least...
but i knew i was hurting you. even as i gathered everything i needed, i thought of you and i knew i would never do that to you.
i couldn't ever...
Cos when I say 'I love you', I mean it. :]"

And now I know everything happens for a reason. And we are best friends for a reason.
And I love you for a reason.
I'm not going anywhere and I'll never ever stop loving you. Hand over my heart, gun to my head.
If you go to hell, I'll go with you. Even if there's nothing there.
When you said it'd only hurt for a little while I knew it'd hurt forever cause it'd hurt the whole time you're gone.
And I have a low pain tolerance.