Monday, May 26, 2008

Heart surgery isn't that bad.

Dear nobody,
I'm lost without you. I don't have you. Maybe I'll never be found. Maybe you don't exist. Maybe I don't either. I don't believe in love, but maybe I should. I can't. Are you out there, lil nobody? Can you hear me? I need you. I can feel it. It's there. I know it is. Because when I look at you, I can feel it. This is important. Don't ask why, I know it to be true. Keep writing.

All I bleed is words.

All we are is hopeless babies.

No future. Maybe some. Possible legacies, we just haven't been notified. The only living being who wants to be a robot.
TIN MAN HEART. It'd be much easier. I'm tired of feeling. I need you, somebody. I need you, nobody. I don't love you. Not yet. Give me your love. I want to curl up and sleep inside of it, then you can have it back. That's all I ask. Maybe I can keep part of it. I need something to hold onto. I've got nothing to give. Sorry for that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.
Love? It's not true. It doesn't exist.
Maybe we stand a chance. Not tall. We're hunched over. Pick me up. Carry me away. Am I sincere or just begging for attention? Not the latter, I assure you.

Can you keep a secret? I can't stop loving you. Sew your lips. Zip 'em up. Lock them tight. Throw away the key. Toss it in the ocean. Gone forever. Now that we're done. I'm not sorry. Sorry for that. What a misfortune. Now only lasts a minute.
LAUGH ME ASLEEP.
I want to wake up next to someone just so I know the world hasn't stopped turning without me. Just so I know I still exist.
Goodnight, nobody. Goodnight.

2 comments:

Niki said...

crappers.

that gave me chills.
:/
we need guys.
I feel almost desperate... or maybe way past.

Bethy said...

Yeah.
Desperate.
Definitely.
I never thought I'd be...desperate.